Feel The Wrath of My Lens

I’m truly sorry if somebody felt the pinch over my last entry, though I was actually casting the words in general. It is just that things got by, and I was at my limit, and there was the time that I felt the need to pen it down as something to be noted at large. We human needed to reminded from time to time though we may feel uncomfortable being reminded because our inner ego.

I’m not scribing what I’ve scribed earlier to state I’m revoking my hands from helping my friends nor that I have the intention of ending my relationship with anyone. I was merely yearning to taste just a bit of signs of appreciation and support on top of what I’m doing. It means a lot to me getting to be appreciated from the people close to me instead of getting bombarded with insults and blasphemy.

I know I’m no angel. I just like to write to keep me reminded. If the writing was to be read by at large, it’ll be useful for others as fruitful thoughts.

I’m sorry that I had to write
Given choices I’ve got to decide
I’m sorry you’re not happy
I’m sorry it all starts from me
I’m sorry I’m not good enough
I’m sorry it became so tough
I’m sorry I’ve done all wrong
I’m sorry I can’t please you along
I’m sorry I don’t earn that much
Can’t afford things and all of such
I’m sorry I’m a load to you
I swear I’d retract only if I knew
I’m sorry if you’re still angry
It’s natural I’m asking an apology

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I would like to wish all readers Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri. Maaf Zahir & Batin

PS:Just a note. These pictures were from last year’s Hari Raya Aidil Fitri

Like seriously, I don’t have much encouragement from my friends on what I do, let alone what I like to do. Nor do I receive any respect from what I’ve been doing. It is as though, I’m not good at it, or they just don’t like me doing it – something that still boggles my mind as I’m scribing this.

I have quite a number of friends who would actually put me down in front of others. Like really, put me down. It’s like degrading me to the lowest of all mankind, hence I would always silence myself up. I still don’t understand what are the reasons behind that sorts of actions, at all. Again, it boggles my mind.

I’ve tried my best to do favors for them when I can, where I can, in within my capacity. But yet, I don’t receive any form of recognition, at all. Appreciation wise … is far from existence. A ‘thank you’ would at times being heard, though it wasn’t at all meant. Repetitively, I’d be put down and humiliated, out of nowhere, again and again, by the very person I did those favors to.

I don’t recall saying and doing bad things to any of my friends, let alone jeopardizing their careers. But I’ve been receiving that sort of treatment numerous times. I’ve tried hard to logicalize the meaning of a friend. Wikipedia renders it as such –

A friend is a person that someone likes or knows. People who are friends talk to each other and spend time together. They also help each other when they are in trouble. Friends are people that can be looked up to and trusted. A friend is one who admires a person’s skill and helps or encourages them to make the right choices.
People sometimes call their closest friend their “best friend.” If a person become very good friends with someone, they are called their boyfriend or girlfriend. This means that they like them very much, and have formed a relationship. Women often use the word girlfriend when referring to their close female friends.

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In my case … some of the nearest friends I have only ‘know’ me by my name. And it all stops there. I’m not good enough to be a friend.

Many anticipated last night’s result, though many (inclusively me) at the same time hoped for a miracle to happen. Well, Kedah fans have got to be settled with losing to Bahrain’s club, Al Muharraq Manama at 2-1. It was quite a game, really. It was forceful, aggressive and full of rage. People are practically shouting and swearing everywhere; in the field, beside the field and not to mention at the seats.

I would like to personally thank Shauqi and Shazlee for helping me to cover this match though it was quite a task getting proper credentials from the match management for them.

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I don’t understand the many mindsets of most Kedahans when it comes to football, particularly those who claimed they liked football, that is. When asked whether or not they’ll be turning up for the match with Al Muharraq in Alor Star, most will turn down saying “Buatpa nak pi tengok .. harituh dah kalah teruk .. sure kali nie pun teruk jugak ..” (translation: “what it is for to go and watch, the previous match was a catastrophe, for sure it’ll be the same for this one”)

As for me, if you really liked and in this case belonged to something, you stick to it, be proud of it, support it, nurture it, so it’ll be your pride no matter what happens. The words like “kalah menang bukan ukuran, sokongan kami sepanjang zaman” which translates to “win or lose is not a measure, our endless support is forever” has been seen on so many mediums belonging to Kedah-based entity, which I think is a good motto to start with. But it is the inner mind that needs to absorb the words, bite it, and bring it to the match, physically translate it into a roaring energy that’ll provides fortitude and bravery to the souls on the field.

I really hope to see a lot of turnups tonight at the stadium. Be proud of what you Kedahans made of. Kedah is currently at number 160 at IFFHS (International Federation of Football History & Statistics) standing above Al Muharraq Manama at 190. The previous match orientation with Singapore could be repeated again, maybe?

The title says it all. Yesterday, the AFC match commissioner came to do some inspection on quite a number parameters; security, crowd entrance, healthcare, logistics, mobilization, etc. From my observation he wasn’t quite happy with the preparation he was seeing yesterday. Today, he did another round of check in which I wasn’t present hence I need to cover a media conference with both teams, Kedah and Al Muharraq (a Bahrain club) at Holiday Villa, Alor Star. Oh … have you ever wondered what is it like being in the middle of the field in the Darulaman Stadium? You need to have quicktime installed to view this 360 degree virtual trip

It was quite a busy morning I believe that only one media turned up (couldn’t really recall from where the personnel is from). The conference started with the chairman giving an opening word. Then each coach and team captain took some questions. Pretty much a decent conference without exchanging any pot shots.

And here are some shots from the day of inspection (yesterday) and media conference (today).

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